Porn-induced erectile dysfunction

Porn-induced erectile dysfunction

When ex-BFC3in2016 noticed that it takes me long to get hard enough to fuck him, he told me he doesn’t mind if I want to watch porn to turn me on.

Days later, and just days before return to Germany (9sep-19oct2016) I came across this article: http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/hooked-on-porn-turned-off-sex-a7169701.html where I read:

...is an 18-year-old with a problem. He can’t get an erection with the girlfriend he loves. His issue isn’t physical. Neither is it a typical psychological problem such as performance anxiety. The reason Volakov is impotent, he believes, is internet porn.

and thought: that's close to my situation: I can usually perform well with porn or prostitutes or in saunas, but when I get a cute boy without character flaws for free in my room, I often can't get hard enough for fucking, or stay hard long enough for fucking. Not that fucking is that important to me, I use it as a benchmark.

These sites offer not only a place to share problems but also, they claim, a solution: “rebooting”. Rebooting involves abstaining from just porn; porn and masturbation; or porn, masturbation and sex, from periods of 90 days or longer. “Rebooters” claim that long-term abstinence from porn and the subsequent “rewiring” of their brains (hence the term rebooting) cure all their problems, even impotence.

I can’t fit 90 days or longer into my schedule, but one month is doable.

This is greatly aided by staying in Germany with my parents (I'm rarely alone at home), cold weather and no eye candy. No gayromeo, hornet, gboysiam; maximum is reading trip reports on forums, and if by chance there are pictures of pornographic nature quickly scroll down and no indecent thoughts.

First time since I started to become sexually active more than 20 years that I have spent a month without wanking (and without sex; I had phases in Thailand where I didn't wank for weeks, but had sex instead).

So I managed one month without problems, but it didn’t have any effect on me.

One Canadian study was unable to find any men who had never watched porn.

My first experience with porn was around age 15, when I was at a friend's place and his parents were away, he invited me to watch some white straight porn he found somewhere in the garbage. (Videocassette recorder / VHS cassette at that time) Rather disgusting. Then it took around 10 years until by chance I came across pictures of Asian boys in underwear/swimwear on the internet, which piqued my interest and lead to more research. Nowadays with technical advances I guess you wouldn't find anyone in Thailand over the age of 10 who hasn't seen porn.

My consumption of porn was less than 30 minutes per week last year, and increased to less than 1 hour per week after a friend sent me an invitation to a gay porn group on Line, where I had to check everything that is posted to find the one gem among 100 boring videos.

Copyright 2016 ChristianPFC except quotes in italic

Gay activities September 2016

Gay activities September 2016

28.8.2016 Sunday
There is a very cute boy M on www.gboysiam69.com (the website recently changed domain name again to avoid censorship?). Only phone number given (I don’t like to call, I prefer writing on Line). Start with an SMS: no reply. Some hours later I call: person who picks up phone doesn’t know of massage service. Then extensive search on the internet with other information provided in the profile: can’t find anything. Give up.

1.9.2016 Thursday
Déjà vu 21:25-21:45. 180 Baht entry. About 50 customers. In Karaoke room one shapely, all others too old, too fat. Sauna closed for renovation, Jacuzzi dry, steam room in operation. Show 20:30-22:00 (used to start 21:30). When I arrive, already moved to 3rd floor, too dark. No more free snacks at bar left, but still fizzy drinks.

Seed 21:58-22:25, 100 Baht entry. Underwear day observed. Total 3 customers who were all in locker room waiting for more to come. Spend some time on the internet, then leave.

Farose 2, 22:48-00:05, 160 Baht entry. Over 20 customers, increasing towards midnight. Some worth a second look. I thought visiting 3 saunas in one night is dedication, but a regular there (used to go every day when he was living in Bangkok) comes twice a month from Phetchabun (by car coming 5-9 pm, return 6-10 am). But even without success with boys, they have the most delicious coke and some lovely cats, and there is free food buffet (fancy description of what's on offer) on rooftop.

On way home by taxi (detour via Makkasan and Wireless road), I notice the area that housed Langsuan Balcony (gay karaoke, no customers whenever I had a look the years before) is now a giant construction site.

2.9.2016 Friday
Appointment with BFC3in2016 in QSNCC for travel fair. He is there earlier than I, despite having a longer trip. After a few minutes of walking around together, he is too tired to walk and sits and waits for me. Afterwards to my room, where we have a so-so wank.

3.9.2016 Saturday
The boy M from 28.8. is back on gboysiam, with same picture and same phone number, and I get a notification on Line that he has been added by phone number. Chat with him on Line and will meet in a few days (when I first saw his profile, I would have gone instantly, but now I have cooled down).



I have an appointment with Kot at 8. By 9 still no message from him, I prepare to go to sauna (party and show at Macho). He calls just when I'm leaving my room, is downstairs already 21:08. Short chat and give him 100 Baht. (Update: check again on Line, appointment was at 9. For a change, not boy late, but I made a mistake.)

Macho sauna 21:42-00:30, entry 160. No signs of party, no food left, no show, but spot two nice bodies and chat up a cute boy P, good English and interesting conversation. I would have left it at that, but he hints for room. Despite unfavorable conditions (light, temperature, I'm generally not a fan of sex in sauna) we have a great time. 

He asks me to delete all my online dating accounts, which is a bit early, and which I tell him I will not do. My gayromeo has chats with people who don't live any more, that would be lost forever if I deleted my account.

On my way home in taxi, JJ Bangna and wants to stay over night. I invite him, but no activities and no money changes hands.

5.9.2016 Monday
After the great time in sauna, meet P again as soon as possible, which is now. We meet for lunch at moonhouse, P eats everything on his plate:



I think I’m falling in love and promote him to BFC4in2016. 

Sightseeing together all day. Makes some drama about love/sex, I have to tell him to shut up as it's too early to discuss such matters. Then too my room, I shower and get into foreplay without him showering. The dried clean sweat on his neck is delicious, should do this more often. 

He has three hairs on his chest and I don't like the feeling of chest hair in my mouth during nipple play (although not as bad as pubic hair). Strangely, they are about 5 cm long, so I can easily pull out one of his chest hairs (I have many, but they are short, so you can't pull them out with bare fingers). He complains and won't let me pull out the remaining two.

P sets his aircon at 26°C, ex-BFC3in2016 sets his aircon at 28°C, and I usually set my aircon at 27°C. That means we are all temperature compatible, whereas many other boys I know like 22°C which is too cold for me.

6.9.2016 Tuesday
We get up 5 am, and I walk him to bus station and wait with him about 50 minutes until his bus comes. Is this love? 

Some sightseeing in Taling Chan and in afternoon meet M from gboysiam at his place. Communication in Thai ok, even speaks some English. He is home alone (shares room with brother?) and we start with dry massage. Good massage and good afters, but cold and wet skin throughout. Ponder to give 800 or 1000, but decide on 1000, good vibes throughout and my type and my style and willing and able.

Cold and wet skin must be in the genes, like hair or eye color. I once had a boy in Pattaya who didn't warm up over night in my bed. Whereas my mother usually has warm hands. So I ask M if he always has cold skin: positive answer in full sentence. That means he is aware of having cold and wet skin.

7.9.2016 Wednesday
Weeks ago, there was a cute boy on gboysiam who lives in Ladprao and all pictures and initial chat were positive:



Now I have business in Laprao and want to meet him. Chat in Line to learn that he shares a mobile phone and a Line account with a friend Por (who currently has phone and Line), and while Por is in Ladprao, Net is in Korat. Nonetheless, go to have a chat with Por (who says he remembers me from months ago in Kawaii boys in Pattaya) and get Net's facebook.

Continue to Nake sauna, reported separately:
http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/09/nake-gym-sauna-in-happyland-ladprao.html

8.9.2016 Thursday 
BFC4in2016 offers to come with me to the airport, I have to reject this idea. Arriving at or departing from an airport is like going to toilet: I prefer to do it alone. Whereas railway or bus station is fine. Anyway, there is no time, straight to check-in and through checks.

Past all checks, waiting for boarding, Kot messages me on Line and makes a desperate attempt at getting some money. Sorry, you will have to wait until I come back.

Summary 1-9 Sep 2016:
3 free sex: BFC3in2016, P=BFC4in2016 in Macho, P=BFC4in2016 in my room.
1 paid sex: M Taling Chan 1000.

No Gogo or host bars, and haven’t been to Surawong bars in my two months stay!
5 sauna:. Déjà vu, Seed, Farose 2, Macho, Nake.
3 no sex: Kot (100 Baht, my mistake wrong time), JJ Bangna, Por friend of Net.
1 massage: M Taling Chan.

Copyright 2016 ChristianPFC except pictures which were freely available on the boys' posts on gboysiam

Philatelic Museum Sam Sen Nai

Philatelic Museum Sam Sen Nai

Philatelic Museum Sam Sen Nai  
พิพิธภัณฑ์ตราไปรษณียากรสามเสนใน

Open Wed-Sun 8:30-16:30

Closed Mon, Tue, public holidays

Free entry

Currently (Mar – Dec 2016) special exhibition about 100^th anniversary of Hua Lampong railway station, and an exhibition about Vietnam.

From BTS Saphan Kwai take exit 1, or one of the many buses that pass; the museum is in the backyard of the post office.

coordinates

View of building from BTS Saphan Kwai platform:

Special exhibition about 100^th anniversary of Hua Lampong Railway station:

Notes on history (air raid shelter near Hua Lampong during WWII, row boats in front of Hua Lampong during flooding in 1942) and language (carriage or bogie, ชานชาลา or  ชาลชรา):

Special exhibition about Vietnam:

On weekend, there is a philatelic market:

Permanent exhibition:

Thanks to a Farang friend for alerting me of the special exhibition 100^th anniversary of Hua Lampong railway station.

Copyright 2016 ChristianPFC

Mahanankorn inauguration 29aug2016

Mahanankorn inauguration 29aug2016

Mahanakorn construction site has been dominating the skyline of Bangkok for years and can be seen from up to 20 km distance.

From Baan Chaophraya:

From The Ascott Sathorn:

From Chao Phraya river boat:

A friend told me about inaguration on 29aug2016 and told me about tests for the light show in the days before. http://www.gaythailand.com/forums/topic/10521-29aug2016-lightshow-at-mahanakon/

Thus, I went twice on 28 and 29aug2019 and took pictures from old cemetery in Silom Soi 9:

 
From BTS Chong Nonsi:

The complete building after inauguration in daylight:

 
Movie of inauguration light show:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6kUDwvB6Z8
About the architecture: http://www.domain.com.au/news/thailands-new-tallest-building-mahanakhon-is-designed-to-look-unfinished-20160905-gr8run/

update 27feb2017:
http://www.khaosodenglish.com/life/arts/2016/08/30/sex-drugs-boredom-under-skin-of-mahanakhon/

Copyright 2016 ChristianPFC

Gay activities August 2016

Gay activities August 2016

2.8.2016 Tuesday
Return from Ubon and message Boss Vipa16, Music and Bos McDo no reply (but I knew that these 3 are difficult to contact), Pong is in Khon Kaen, Nax Charan65 no reply. Finally Wut Hua Lampong is online, but wants to eat seafood first (i.e. he wants me to invite him and his friends for seafood dinner) and would come to my room afterwards. There will be some excuse after seafood dinner, so I insist on meeting in my room first.

And indeed he comes (stays 21:40-22:10) and is open for wanking. But I can’t get him to fully undress (he will just pull pants down and shirt up), and activities rushed. And before and after too much touching of my stuff and too much looking around, I have the impression he is looking for stuff to steal.

Great body and warm and dry skin and no body hair, nonetheless not much value for 700 Baht (500 for wanking +200 for rent of tuk-tuk?). That’s before considering that I have been working on this boy over 10 hours and spent more than 2000 Baht since we first met in Feb (?) 2015. Next time will be more clear what I expect.

Afterwards drive around in his tuk-tuk 21:10-48. Calls several friends, wants to change from seafood to durian to take-away: no! Finally say goodbye at Hua Lampong railway station. Cost me an hour, but saved me at least 1000 Baht for dinner.

A few more of such straight boy seductions, and I will give up.

3.8.2016 Wednesday
Kot comes, wants me to fuck him, but can’t take it. Before he told me he is top only. Maybe 1000 Bath (to buy a new mobile phone) instead of the usual 500 made the difference? 

Now that I know that another boy is a thief, and Kot might have stolen from me, I set up my camera in video mode and put it in a hidden place where it has good view of room before I let the boy in, and secretly record video while I'm showering. My pants with wallet is on the floor in front of the camera (not visible in video), and Kot stays in bed reading the book I gave him while I shower. Not a thief.

5.-6.8.2016 Pattaya separate post.
http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/08/pattaya-quicky-fri-5-sat-682016.html


7.8.2016 Sunday
Seed 00:44-01:58. The one cute boy in there disappears with another customer in an internet cubicle. But this is my lucky day, afterwards he (name Game) joins me in my cubicle as well.  

9.8.2016 Tuesday
Phnom Penh saunas separate post.
http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/08/gay-saunas-in-phnom-penh-aug-2016.html

10.8.2016 Wednesday
Meet BFC1in2016 again in Phnom Penh. Due to his work/study schedule, only time at night and then stays over night until following morning.

12.8.2016 Friday
On return from Cambodia by land http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/08/cham-yeam-to-baan-hat-lek-border.html stop in Trat and Rayong. I know a boy Jame in Rayong and arranged to meet him. The hotel I had in mind is closed for renovation, and there seem to be no other places near bus station, so I walk around until I find some place to stay (East Hotel โรงแรมตะวันออก, fan room 200 Baht). The place is very basic, but I want to get rid of my luggage and take a shower. It would be embarrassing to bring a friend back here, and that’s a self-fulfilling prophecy: when I message Jame with hotel name, he writes back he is not free tonight. Later walking through town I find better places, closer to bus station.

This is the most costly no-show, not in terms of money (only 250 Baht), but I could have continued trip to Pattaya and spent the night in Pattaya. In time, it cost me 6 hours (time lost due to no-show) or 24 hours (I could have been back in Bangkok a day earlier without stop in Rayong) depending on how you count it.

13.-14.8.2016 Saturday-Sunday
I know so many boys in Pattaya, I can’t let this chance pass to stop in Pattaya to meet some of them.
http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/08/pattaya-quicky-sat-13-sun-1482016.html

15.8.2016 Monday
Meet BFC3in2016 in The Mall Bangkapi for cinema and market at Ramkhamhaeng university afterwards. Everything positive. That’s 3 dates without action with this boy. But looking back, those I went to bed with on first date, little useful came out of it. Now he is ripe:



Seed 20:38-21:57, 100 Baht entry. About 10 customers throughout, no cute, spend time on internet.

16.8.2016 Tuesday
I have Kot scheduled for 23:00 and X for midnight. However Kot is late and X is early, thus I have 2 boys (who don’t know each other) in my room at the same time, slightly embarrassing.

While X is on the balcony smoking, I give Kot 300 Baht and tell him I’m not horny and X will stay overnight, assuming that Kot will leave after taking the money. But this time he didn’t come by his own motorbike as usually, a friend took him and will pick him up, so we spend 23:50-01:10 all three in my room with some awkward conversation or each of us playing on his mobil phone.

Once Kot is gone, we go to bed. I have no intention of sex, but hug X just to know he is there and I could if I wanted, whereupon he asks me:
“Do you want sex?”
“No.”
“But I want sex.”
An request I can’t refuse (warm and dry skin).

17.-18.8.2016 Wednesday-Thursday
A friend H from Austria is in Bangkok for some days, and when we met in the past we used to go to Soi Twilight, but now neither of us thinks it’s worth going.

18.8.2016 Thursday
There is a new construction site near my place, where I spot a cute boy who smiles and waves when he notices me. Linger around and take some pictures:





And chat him up. Name Boy from Nonthaburi, and travels from/to Nonthaburi every day which takes 3 hours (return or each way?). Will invite him to stay with me. (Update: was away a lot, and when I was in Bangkok and had no other plans couldn't spot him when I passed around 5 pm, couldn't realize this plan.)

19.8.2016 Friday
BFC3in2016 arrives 21:30 and stays over night.

20.8.2016 Saturday
Activities in the morning, but I don’t get fully hard. What does he do 10:00-30 in my bathroom? When he comes out, bathroom floor is wet, and with his wet feet he leaves wet spots on my room floor.

"Did you draw the shower curtain?"
"No. Should I?"
"Why are your feet so wet? Didn't you wipe them on the door mat?"
(still the same doormat that BFC1in2015 puked on and then turned around instead of cleaning it.)
"Sorry, I didn't." 
    
That, together with inability to read maps (he even admitted) and being tired after a few minutes of walking, makes him ex-BFC3in2016.

For a change from my usual Seed and Farose 2 trips, Phoenix and Macho today.

Phoenix 20:23-56. 180 Baht entry. Estimate 20-30 customers and count 25 occupied lockers. Condom 52 mm and lube provided. Towel ok. Cloth provided to wrap around your waist worn by most customers. Customer base looks promising, but no action for me today.

Macho 21:16-55. 160 Baht entry. Estimate 30 customers. One slim and tall but pale and wet skin, one cute staff. No condom or lube provided. Towel too small. All customers in underwear. Free food (fried rice).

Saranrom 22:12-22:47 one round. Optimistic counting 12 boys, 2 cute. But had I not recognized some of the boys from before (and they recognized me as well), I would not have known they are available, in particular those driving around on mocy.

21.-26.8.2016 Trip to the north (Phrae, Chiang Rai, Chiang Mai, Nakon Sawan) with Farang friend.

22.8.2016 Monday
A boy Will whom I met in Wat Hua Lampong in Dec 2015 moved to Chiang Rai shortly after. Now I will be in Chiang Rai and want we have intention to meet. Communication was slow from the beginning and a black out while I was in Chiang Rai (but afterwards resumed).

23.8.2016 Chiang Mai reported separately:
http://christianpfc.blogspot.de/2016/10/chiang-mai-23aug2016.html

25.8.2016 Thursday
Stay in Nakon Sawan (just over night because FF is too tired to drive to Bangkok). Hornet is active and several cute boys (whereas Ubon no cute boy within 50 km), but none of the cute is interested.



It was late (add 5 hours to get Thailand time), I was tired, but could have fitted in a quicky, but only if we skip romantique and talk, just "fuck now?".

Romantique, French for romantic, is what a Farang friend calls (and even pronounces in French, despite not speaking French) his fringe activities with boys (i.e. activities before and after fucking), and I like this expression.

26.8.2016 Friday
Kot is one hour late (21 instead of 20). Another friend X wants to come as well, but this time I can keep them apart by telling X I’m busy. Kot cums on my bedsheet, so do I. Usually I manage to keep all cum away from bedsheet. After wiping off and drying, there is only a weak spot. If you didn’t know, you wouldn’t notice. I can continue using this bedsheet without washing, but have to change it when I invite Kot again.

27.8.2016 Saturday
I have been in contact with a boy James D from hornet for months, finally everything aligns and he comes to my room. Everything positive, will meet again some day.

28.8.2016 Sunday
By chance, meet the cute boy Boy from construction site (see 18.8.2016) when he is buying food. Chat him up and ask for Line, but neither his Line ID nor phone number is recognized on my phone, he becomes impatient to go back, so I give him my name card. No call.

X wants to come, doesn't want money, but then postpones to 23, then cancels:



I spotted a cute boy on hornet, gayromeo and gboysiam:



And now is an occasion to invite him to my room. Good communication in English and on time (we didn’t set a time, but he finishes work 20:00 and arrived around 21:00, with estimated 30 minutes walk and without too much confusion about location). Even brought oil for oil massage, but I don’t want to spill oil on my bed linen and I don’t like oil during afters, so I ask for dry massage. Skillful at massage and afters, full recommendation (but why does he change Line, gayromeo, hornet so often?)

29.08.2016 Monday
JJ Bangna can’t come.

30.8.-1.9.2016
Pattaya separately: http://christianpfc.blogspot.com/2016/10/pattaya-308-192016.html

Summary Aug 2016:
4 free sex: Game in Seed, BFC1in2016 in Phnom Penh, BFC3in2016, James D (500 for taxi).
1 not sure:.Ohm 1000.
10 paid sex: Wut 700, Kot 1000, Nake 1000 in Pattaya, Lay 1000 in Pattaya, A 1200 in Pattaya, Lay 1000 in Pattaya, X 520, Kot 800, Lek Lao 1000, Nice boys 1000 = 9220 an expensive month!

10 Gogo bars: Nice Boys, Power Boys, Eros, Kawaii Boys, Cupidol, Nice Boys, Vassa, X-Boys Pattaya, Eros, Nice Boys.
2 host bar: Orion in Chiang Mai, The Venue (not exactly a host bar, but closest in my list).
5 sauna: 2 Seed, Phoenix, MachoX, House of Male in Chiang Mai.
(and more in Phnom Penh)
1 hornet: James D.
2 no sex: BFC3in2016, Kot 300.
3 no show: James in Rayong, Will in Chiang Rai, JJ Bangna.
1 disco: Tamnan Isan.
1 street trade: Saranrom (just looking).
1 massage: Lek Lao (with happy ending).

Copyright 2016 ChristianPFC